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By Eli Siegel Thomas Gisborne is a little known
poet who is very likable. He wrote against slavery; he also wrote on the
hopes of women; but he's almost completely forgot now. In 1794 he wrote
a long poem, Walks in a Forest. I am sorry to say I cannot call
it true poetry, but it is good observation. I'll read some portion of it:
"Orchis with crowded pyramids the bank/Purpling: the harebell, as with grief depressed." Those happen to be the most poetic lines. Orchis, with its height, makes the bank of the river purple. These two lines are so crowded, they're poetic. Then, the
lines directly about education. [Gisborne compares a child's mind to soil
that will be planted:]
Woman: Tender and Severe
A large reason we can dislike ourselves, I learned, is that we use tenderness and severity against each other. We're soft and hard for different purposes. In an Aesthetic Realism lesson, Eli Siegel explained to me: "Every person, in thinking to himself or herself, is tough with other people, but we put on a kind of shy performance for the purpose of making ourselves popular." This described me! I could be polite, sympathetic; but I could also have thoughts that were bitter, sarcastic, and feel very hard inside. This was particularly troubling in relation to men. Even as a teenager, I sometimes felt blank, unaffected, as I pretended to be stirred by a young man. I love Aesthetic Realism for showing me that what I thought was a sordid, personal problem was really a cultural, aesthetic problem. Mr. Siegel asked me in a class, "Did you ever get fierce?" "Yes," I answered. ES. Did you ever get tender?"I don't know," I replied; and Mr. Siegel explained: "The first thing is to see that fierceness and gentleness can serve one thing. Do you think your fingernails are fiercer than your fingertips?" KVO. Yes.I had wanted to knock people out, and had seen early that while I couldn't do it physically, I could do it verbally. My father was so hurt by the sarcastic way I spoke to him and my three brothers that he stopped having dinner with us and took his meals upstairs in his room by himself. The Feelings of People"He has feelings," I answered. And Mr. Siegel asked, "Have you wanted to see them?" "No," I replied. Then he said: "This is where the debate is between you and me, because I feel you want to have feelings, but you're sure afraid of them." Mr. Siegel was describing, with such kindness, the thing I had most against myself. He was showing too that we can't have feelings we're proud of unless we want to see the feelings of another. As I studied Aesthetic Realism, hardness and softness in me began to change. I thought about how other people saw the world. I asked what opposites they were trying to put together. I saw that the persons in my family, most of whom I had seen or talked to nearly every day of my life, were unknown, mysterious, worth trying to understand. I stopped being afraid of having feeling, and, in Aesthetic Realism classes I had emotions I'd longed for — about art, about people. Love: Passion and Integrity One of the things
that stirred me deeply and made me trust Anthony Romeo was that when my
body was affected by his, he was impelled to ask if I felt I was the same
person who was critical. Because of what he had learned from Aesthetic
Realism, Anthony wanted me to be an integrity; and it moved me so much
to feel that the man who wanted to be close to my body was also trying
to be within my mind. Aesthetic Realism is the knowledge that can bring
together, in love, passion and integrity!
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Aesthetic Realism is based on these principles, stated by Eli Siegel:1. The deepest desire of every person is to like the world on an honest or accurate basis. 2. The greatest danger for a person is to have contempt for the world and what is in it .... Contempt can be defined as the lessening of what is different from oneself as a means of self-increase as one sees it. 3. All beauty is a making one of opposites, and the making one of opposites is what we are going after in ourselves. |
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